By my own

Drowned by my own life
Destroyed by my own sin
Dead by my own destruction

Who will save me from me?
I'm own my own?

Cruel

World as we speak, become cruel and evil day by day..
No more judgement,only punishment..
Why should we be like this?
Where all the love and life gone?
How could you be so cruel?
Leaving me, screaming, crying and rotting...
For how long this will be end?

Thru the hole i crawled
Into the world so cold
Standing alone
Waiting to be gone?

Should i start screaming?
Should i start crying?
I cannot be lying
For what i'm feeling

World is much better with you by my side
So beautiful, so graceful
So weird now thats all gone
So weird now im the only one

I hold the tears in my eyes
I hold the tears in my heart
When will this pass?
For how long will it last?

I will wait for you
Because of my love for you
I will stay with you
Because i will always love u

-Created by my own sin-

ArGhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Why cant u say that u love me more?
Why cant u promise?
Why cant i see thru you?
Why cant ur love make u promise?

Where can i search for help?
Where can i cry alone?
Where is ur love gone?
Where is ur heart gone?

When will can i see u?
When will i should start seeking?
When will i could stop crying?
When will this pain and suffering end?????

How will this end?
How will I suffer?
How will I survive?
How will I cannot love u?

Never will and never be..
All this were meant to be..
For you I was made to be..
And together we will ever be..

DESTINY

It's not the chances we take, It's the choice we make, that determine our destiny...

wake me when this is over

Hope this was all just a nightmare. Hoping to wake up in a warm bed. Yet, i still havent waking up. Then i know, that this is not a nightmare. Just another reality that i have to face until when i cannot tell. Wish i could end this here. But i cant coz im weak, powerless and rotten....

Lonely

Today is the day i felt really miserable, lost and uncertain for what will happen. I choose to trust her, but yet, my heart says different things. I let my guard down, my rasional down and myself down. Just could see her happy is what is matter. I felt like falling into a dark hole, sitting alone and waiting to rot. Waiting for her to pull me back up, to make me feel needed once more. Argghhhhh!!!! I hate this feeling. I've been there before and yet I went in it again. Until when should i started to call for help, to cry for help, to scream for help so that my voice will be heard and hoping she would come and save me. I seem voiceless, only screaming inside alone and crying my heart out, alone. Never felt this kind of lonliness before. It's geting more and more worse..

LOVE & HATE

When love meet hate, it become uncertain for what will happen
But if hate defeat love, heart will be broken
And if love defeat hate, heart will never be broken?

So, for me, whatever our choice is, its already written on our destiny..

who could have thought?

who could ever thought i will be so stupid?

who could ever thought i will gamble my life?

who could ever thought i will let her do this?

who could ever thought i will be so blind?

who could ever thought i will love her so much until this moment?

None of this matter because i really love her...

all hope lost in a matter of time

Thanx for reading my blog. This blog is for my personal expression towards what i felt about my life. Hope was the best thing that i have, but yet, no one can see, that a simple hope could bring a major damage in one's life. All hope was gone in a matter of time. I live by hoping to see that one day, my life would get better. Yet, i still put my trust on hope.